June 7, 2011 @ 3:58 AM

even smiling seems difficult.

just by sitting quietly at the back of the car, i will have to urge to cry.
i think its just me.

i guess i walked too fast.
& now, when i want to look back its too late.
everything's too late.
Life's a bitch,
I am a mess.

March 9, 2011 @ 4:46 AM

finally have time to breathe.

Upcoming events:
28th - piano exam
6th- SYF

this year is hell fast. HAVE HOPE & WORK HARD shall be my new motto. maybe paste it somewhere visible so that i can be reminded everytime i step in to my room. people say, now is the time to study hard because what we do now determines our fate. but its not easy to study 24/7 and mug like mad. putting notes in front of me which i know i wont really revise, seems somewhat stupid, but at least it makes me feel better. Lying to myself is just a new skill i picked up to prevent myself from breaking down.

reverse psychology. i cant help but believe it. i imagine negative things so that they wont happen in reality. this is why i dont dare to dream. once i do, they will never happen, not to me.

December 21, 2010 @ 7:11 PM

X'MAS IS COMING!(:

i want my present santa, im a good kid this year(:

November 30, 2010 @ 10:11 PM

i spent my 15th birthday..
- facing the sink & toilet bowl
- vomiting
- having body aches
- fever
- feeling dizzy
- sleeping for 10+ hours


it sucks being sick):
stomach flu ruined my birthday ):

November 25, 2010 @ 6:26 AM

CRUISE TOMORROW♥♥

#1 - rock climb
#2 - water slide
#3 - zipline
#4 - play pool
#5 - ice skate
#6 - bowl
#7 - take many many pics
#8 - PLAY HARD (:

bye, dont miss me (:

November 24, 2010 @ 6:50 AM

i dont regret. & never will.
i just miss how it use to be.

Aunty on the bus. carrying gucci bag. heavy makeup. dark blue eye shadow. mascara. eyeliner. huge jewel type of earrings. slim cut dress. curly short hair. dark blue specs. hand accessories. rings. nail polish. 3-4 inch heels. skin coloured stockings. & let me tell you, even though what she wore sounds ridiculous, she look amazing.
its not how old you are, its how old you want to be.


long answers: care so much for what.
2word answer: problem with attitude.
keep quiet: anti-social

just go away.